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12 June 2000

test, re-test, and doublecheck

I don't actually have much to say today, just one thing. I was thinking a bit about things, and meeting with Soon tonight. How for Perry, the Old Testament Joseph was shared with him, and how it affected him so, how many things they had in common, and how he could learn from the Joseph story. For me, it is the story of Gideon. At a meeting of the Young Adult fellowship at my church, a speaker gifted in Prophecy shared with me that story, and that God was grooming me to be in a similar position, to be (get this) a warrior for God.

Now, I'm not a warrior. But I may yet be. Gideon's answer, basically, when he heard the angel's calling, said "Who, me?" My answer is the same. I've been praying and thinking about it, trying to iron out what, exactly, this means. And I still don't know. I know I'm to memorize scripture (which I haven't been doing nearly enough). There are a lot of similarities between myself and Gideon. He asked God to prove himself not once, but three times. The next thing that happened, is God told him to tear down an altar of Baal and build an altar to God. This he did, but at night, because he was afraid. To get the rest, go ahead and read the chapter linked above and the next couple after that.

So, as I said, I've been thinking a bit about it lately. I don't know what's going to happen, but I kept wondering why it hasn't been happening yet. One day, I realized that, though Gideon was unsure of whether he would pull it off, he knew what he was supposed to do. I think I'm just going to have to wait until God shows me what battle I'm to fight. Then, as I'm wont to do, I'm sure I'll be testing Him a couple more times. The good news is, once convinced, Gideon did amazing things. Until he was convinced, though, he kept doublechecking. That's what I tend to do...

musings of a prod.

It was a slower time for the Revolution in the Spring/Summer of 2000.


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